Insurance Denial

We returned home from our 2 week Christmas vacation from the Midwest to find a letter from United Heathcare. It is January 2nd. I was hoping for the best, a letter stating they would approve Liam's bilateral implants. What we got was just the opposite. A denial letter. The first denial letter and we assume more to come based on the history of insurance companies. I didn't really know how to react. At first I thought, it was OK because Liam will be approved. Then I became very sad. Sad because it just means one more month of waiting, one more month my child cannot hear, one more month he has to in a silent world. I am mad, disappointed and so frustrated but there is nothing I can do. This is the way it is, so we were told by the audiologist. Our friend who has a son just a few weeks younger then Liam was approved for bilateral implants at 9 months. No denial letter. They have terrific insurance in my opinion. He will be the first child to receive bi-lateral implants at such a young age. What a blessing. There surgery is scheduled for February 10th.

I asked myself, do I let this bother me and cry and get upset and ruin our Saturday or do I accept it and move on? I accepted it. I have to cherish each and every day. Liam is such a joy despite his hearing loss. He doesn't care. He doesn't know any different.

The other day in the car we were driving back to Colorado from Illinois. I looked in the back seat to find Liam examining and studying a small red ribbon that was tied around his little Christmas bears neck. He ever so gently moved the red satin ribbon between his little 8 month old fingers, so fascinated and mesmerised. These are the things that hearing people take for granted. We don't study and appreciate the little things. We take so much for granted. I have learned to stop on walks with Liam and let him smell the flowers, touch the leaves on trees, run his hands through the grass and just enjoy life.